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    暗夜。

         一棵歪歪斜斜的树,旁边坐着许多等待雇主的临时工。我从他们身上看到了一个幽暗深不可测的空间。高楼与天空结起了密密麻麻的蛛网,而我只是一只陷于囹圄中而不断挣扎的小虫子。随着玻璃幕墙上的阳光渐渐淡薄,一切都黯然下去了。天空中的暮色像黝黑的生铁一样落了下来,我知道如果没有灯光,所有的在眼里只是模糊的轮廓。我站在路中间,也不过是一个像人形状的东西。我觉得头晕,胸腹翻滚着哗哗作响把我推到了一块无人的荒岛上。一切都远离我而去了,点了根烟。依旧猩红的火光在手指间挥舞,那种致人死地的香钻入肺腑深处。我知道这样会加重胃的翻腾,但这样可以使我浮起来。
     
         这一次。穿过立交桥选择了左道行走,从这边看着那边。风景不一样的模糊褪色,现在还有什么东西能点亮我灵魂中那光,或许在一切的黑暗中孤寂地死去。那时候有没有实实在在的殉葬,也许我在火化间就像一段朽木,烤炙中呈现焦黑的颜色弯曲着。晃过眼前的车灯,我依然站在人群中。所有的声音像蝴蝶一样低飞着,从深处发出一种靡沉的嗡鸣。如果我能一眼识破爱恨,看淡贪嗔,那就不会在我的脸上发现某种低贱的痛苦。也不会在浅陋淡薄中寻找着为自己开脱,无法泯灭。揪尽了,我明白爱不是遗忘的话,一切都不会过去。
     
         归家后依然被一种虚弱牢牢地攫住,我现在憎恨夜晚。是不是人对黑暗有着与生俱来的恐惧。临睡前的挣扎往往需要长时间的平复,自以为是的豁达和释然在那一刻竟相苍白。尔后咀嚼着无边的黯然,我。躺在床上,只不过替代着另一个被杀害的人。我需要寻找一个让我遗忘的方式,音乐,电影,文字,设计,软件,视觉,爱情,酒精,咖啡,烟草。只找到了你那深不可测的心。我只是疲惫了,累了。再也无力嘶吼。

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